retirements increase

when you have something sad happening in your life, bear in mind everything could be even worse.

however, to realize this we have to experience it, we have to experience that 'worse' at least once.

we all know Tops have to leave. and we feel very sad when they finally announce their retirements, as we think they could stay just for a little longer. still, it is inevitable that Tops should leave, as there is no more space for them to move on.

N-bantes will also leave someday, after they become Tops and enjoy their success.

the others seem to be kind of eternal. well, at least, they survive and perform, and their performance is stable.

it is exactly that sense of stability which makes me cry now, when I know some of them are leaving very soon, it makes me cry partially because of sadness, and partially because of fear.

I am not acquainted very well with all of them, so I shall write about those ones who touched my heart.

Rizu-chan. I have discovered thou just recently and thy voice was so cheerful. why art you leaving already? you were so cute and thou were so warm, just as Moon required its member to be. Rizu-chan, I was hoping you would reach the top someday, or at least you would be appreciated in accordance with your true ability. it kills me that you are already leaving. I shall miss you so much.

Ayahoshi-san. I am sorry for being wrong about you . first, I thought you are too cute to be a true actress, then I thought you are a good actress but a bad singer, but watching you live for the second time made me change my mind, and I began to think, you will not become a Top, but you will certainly be a great supporting girl, the one who often sings while the Tops dance in a duo, the one who often takes funny or tragic roles, the one who deserves attention and respect. I was looking forward to see you again, even when the Tops change. now I am afraid I shall not.

Aoki-san. I was already dreaming of you becoming a kumichou someday. I was so sure you are a loyal member who would support the others until the end. the reason you leave will never be clear to me. and I am in despair again. 

coupled with the Tops leaving, the shining of six brilliant stars fade away. at the same moment. what will become of Moon without you? what will happen with my favourite troupe????